How was it so easy for you!

How was it so easy for you
To break my sincere heart,
I’ll pay you,just make me learn
Your brutally beautiful art,
Vistas galore in life I too had
I chose to stick to you,
Acted professionally you tad too well
I too could not gauge you,
Using silliest pretexts ever conjured
To tread the luxurious path,
Forgot in a moment every feel
Including pleasing ecstatic bath,
Way to ultimate love is always tough
I feel perhaps you too knew,
Why then make promises so hard
If days with me in your mind were few,
If its all discomfort that you proclaim
Then its all art of your mind,
Even in the toughest hours
I tried to be kind,
Different we might have been
Then love is not between the same,
Adjust to other we have too
In love,its not matter of shame,
As you say that you did not beguile
Its hard for me to believe,
Else all you said and did so long
No honest person could ever perceive,
I am surprised like never before
Unabashed celebrations that you now make,
Your condescending tenor to me manifests
I was an actor’s just another take,
Even then I shall be true
I miss your flickering eyes and wide smile,
All merry cherries that lie sweet within
That I felt to be mine although for a while,
Why is life so stark all the time to me
Why am I dragged and grilled,
And bear blame with no fault of my own
Why always my feeling is killed,
Who gives right to someone else
To be happy at cost of me,
Riches were all there before for you too
What was need to experiment with me,
False picture why did you paint
When I all I did was to be true,
I felt at least to be myself
Why did you make me part of crew,
What excuse should I give my heart
Why did it act as it did,
I cannot find place any for me
Where my emotions can lay hid,
Why did you pretend to change
That too as a solemn friend,
When in your mind always there
I was just a means to an end.

-Prashant